This job came along a year and a half ago. The work itself is relatively benign, but I lack any sense of having a community of peers and can't help but despise with every khaki fiber of my business casual uniform the cubicle culture. I'm disappointed that I've become trapped in this pit, that I fool myself into feeling contentment despite constant stress and frustration, that I realize my false contentment manifests itself as the desire to fling dollars from my hand, and that it's much easier to foster hatred toward the perceived others that I fear I am on the verge of becoming rather than doing anything about my self-loathing. I need to get out of there. I'll probably do something about it this weekend, look for some jobs online or something. Or maybe the weekend after that. Actually, the pay's not so bad and all. Maybe I'll try to last just one more year to save up some cash.
This job came along a year and a half ago. The work itself is relatively benign, but I lack any sense of having a community of peers and can't help but despise with every khaki fiber of my business casual uniform the cubicle culture. I'm disappointed that I've become trapped in this pit, that I fool myself into feeling contentment despite constant stress and frustration, that I realize my false contentment manifests itself as the desire to fling dollars from my hand, and that it's much easier to foster hatred toward the perceived others that I fear I am on the verge of becoming rather than doing anything about my self-loathing. I need to get out of there. I'll probably do something about it this weekend, look for some jobs online or something. Or maybe the weekend after that. Actually, the pay's not so bad and all. Maybe I'll try to last just one more year to save up some cash.
posted by captain_malaka 20 years ago
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