January 10, 2005
I need advice, and I need it in a bad way. Me and my girlfriend were very happy. A few health problems but nothing that wasn't manageable. I proposed last summer (even though the decline had already started) but now things are crashing all around me. She's hurt herself within the past couple months, she cheated on me less than a week ago and called me crying telling me she didn't know who she was anymore. The girl I love is all but lost now, and whats left is crying out for help, and I don't know what to do anymore. A few details, we go to school together (been together 2 1/2 years) although she's now dropping out of school to figure out whats going on with herself. She's been on Lexapro for about a year and a half. No real trigger issues that she can point out to be causing this. She's on epilepsy medication as well and has an insulin pump for diabetes (like I said, a few medical issues, but manageable). I've been doing a little research of things I can offer to maybe help. I came across these two Askme threads which gave me some good sites to look at. I'm wondering if Cognitive Behavioral Therapy might be something she should look into. I also found these two sites that give some good information on how she can cope with this while she has some time off. Sorry to get all soap boxy for a bit, but I've reached my wits end and I wanted to see if anybody had something constructive to offer that I might be missing.
First thing I'd suggest is finding the right meds - they smooth over the really rough spots and help one get a grip on just living daily life. If she's on a downward slide even on Lexapro, then she isn't on the right meds and isn't dealing with some big big issues. Get her to a Psychiatrist who can evaluate if there's more going on and some more serious meds needed. I can't really give you any specifics on what those would be but in a pinch, Xanax is a good anxiety reliever. Puts you to sleep, too. You feel all warm all over. Which is nice.
Then, once she's stabilized, doing CBT is key. Also providing her a safe, nonjudgemental place where she knows she can let herself be. She's probably freaking out more from knowing she's hurting you. The hurting herself, the cheating on you, the calling you crying -- they're all desperate cries for attention. Don't let her be forced into seeking attention that way. Give her positive attention. The girl you know and love is still there. Think of depression like a mask. You know the person you'd recognize is underneath, but they're hiding under something they don't have control over.
Good luck genial...depression isn't fun. But you will learn a great deal about each other in the process.